Today I evalled. I'm not going to bother explaining what it means. It is the anticlimax of my henceforth existence. This 10 hour flight and everyone is too tired to move at the end, and a little too bitter to give where credit is due. It is this landing and this long transit across the united states.
And all the souls I know are on night shift, and it's a wednesday, which means I celebrate with a bottle of smirnoff ice, alone on my couch.
I may watch the daily show, I may read something, I may go to the casino. My apartment smells like onions, like a rotting box - the life is drained out of me. I eat because I must and I let my eyes tumble out of their sockets like bowling balls in the alley down the street. The one I'm not in.
Here is the transparency, here is the melancholy, here is the roadblock. The paths of blue open before me, as does the sand. There is no more excuse.
3 comments:
congrats on finishing!
are you .... relieved? happy? apathetic?
do you feel like you're just treading water til next March?
poor kid.
xoxox
CONGRATULATIONS!!!! I'm sure you did a great job on the eval. I'm so glad you're finally finished. Too bad the timing wasn't sooner...like last year would have been nice. We look forward to hearing how you like the other side of the training, the doing side. I know you can't say much, but at least you can tell us if you like it and it's interesting, etc.
Miss you!
It's almost over my Dear. We'll all be here when you get out.
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